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Yesterday was kind of a tough day... The last journal I wrote was a response that I gave to a Christian struggling with sexual identity issues and I can't believe the amount of flack I've received from writing it. But I was so blessed while writing it because I knew that the Holy Spirit was so present in it all, and I was just so filled with joy to cheer a brother/sister on in their struggle... but I can't believe how other people, people who I wasn't even really addressing, have attacked it like a pack of wolves. And what I've noticed is that they aren't even attacking the scripture or the parts that hold a lot of weight, but attacking me personally.
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Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God.- John 3:20-21
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The bridge between saying, "This is my struggle and I urge you to draw close to the Lord for he is holy, and I remind you with this, be encouraged and take heart," to receive such comments as, "Your a child molester in the making," and "You are a self hater, and it's sick," or "You've probably put your faith in a man who isn't as great as everyone has made him out to be." I guess I just don't understand how people are so aggressive in their justification of sin.
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"But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you." ~ Luke 6:27-28
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I dunno, I've been fighting my want to be really angry and depressed, for you speak truth into someones life and receive the most bitter spirits in return. It makes you think a lot more about what Jesus went through... as well as the Prophets and Disciples.
It hurts a lot to have people tear into your life and touch on subjects that I myself don't even quite understand... My struggle with bisexuality started when I was 5... I don't understand why that was, but I still remember both the drive and the shame even back then. So, I have sympathy with many about questioning how that works, but I don't know either. But just cause something unexplained has happened in my life doesn't make me a liar. Makes me curious about how they would respond if I told them about my encounters with demons and angels would go about... let alone my encounters with the living God himself.
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"So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised." ~ Hebrews 10:35-36
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In spite of it all, I really am blessed. The Lord knows what's going on inside, and his blood still is covering our sin, forever past, present, and future! Be totally blessed today, for it is a day that the Lord has made especially for us all!
In Christ Jesus,
Matthew Palfenier
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~Rules~
NONE! Because I've descided to gift people with features!
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For some time now Keith has been a good online bud, and while I know we aren't the closest of online friends, his work is some of the most simple, powerful, and soft-spoken imagery that I know of. His photography is dynamic, sometimes bursting with color, but very gentle in presentation and quite often I find his work emotional, among being spiritual. I guess I would say that his work is "personal," and reflective of something close to home. His digital pieces are also phenomenal... From a technical standpoint, I have had no experience with digital renderings, but from an artists point of view, the layers and unique presentation of his digital works are beautiful and flow with some kind of natural poetry that many artists strive to achieve, but few ever do...
Revelation 12:11 ~ "They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death."
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Brenda is a good friend of mine and has the title of "first online friend who I have had the pleasure to meet in real life." Her artwork reminds me a lot of my high school days (all the parts that made high school such a blast for an anime nerd anyway). Her simple anime renderings, among the more rare photo-manipulations or paintings, are full of the ironies and sarcasms of life (along with some much needed fan-mania), making them a joy to experience any day of the week. But among the comedy, every long once in a while you'll come across a small gem of reality. These pieces reflect her beautiful love for Christ, as well as the everyday struggles of a heart longing to be made whole and unified in the eyes of God.
Job 8:21 ~ "He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy."
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Sometimes I'd like to think that I live a pretty transparent life, but when I look at the emotional depth and severity of other Christians transparency, sometimes I'm overwhelmed by how fake I can be. I only came across Kristie's work recently... but her art is so quick to break down the walls that I've been compelled to return and continue to dig deep into her work time and time again. The message is not sugar coated, "We live a broken world and Christ is the savior." Her words accompanying each photo not only aid in furthering this message, but it hones it down into a piercing sword which has the ability to bend and break the soul with each passing moment. I long for my artwork to be as transparent as this, and it is encouraging to see followers of Christ who have such a level of transparency. The broken heart brings purity, and the pure in heart see God.
Isaiah 57:15 ~ "I live in a high and holy place, but also with him who is contrite and lowly in spirit, to revive the spirit of the lowly and to revive the heart of the contrite."
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I feel like Alison and I have the same unique passion for nature photography, for it is the greatest testimony to God's creative 'nature' (maybe the pun was intended...? ^_^). Virtually every piece is accompanied by scripture or a biblical principle, which perfectly ties the two into a complete idea. But this is not the only reason as to why I have featured this amazing artist... The other reason is because her photography and compositional skills have improved so much since I started watching her (however long ago), it is breath taking! Out of all the artists that I watch here on dA, I've noticed that her artwork lives and breathes as if it was a living entity... possibly due to the 'nature' (pun?) of her photographs.
Romans 1:20 ~ "For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualitieshis eternal power and divine naturehave been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse."
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Unlike many of my features so far, I don't know Eikonik at all... but I know that he loves the Lord, has a passion for the tales expressed in scripture, and loves to see the gospel of Jesus spread through clearly depicted images with fantastic technical skill. His art is stylized, has a beautifully textured edge, but remains very true to the essence of all the stories he illustrates. One of the things I admire most about his work, is that he doesn't choose to just illustrate the most popular and well known stories of the Bible, but occasionally I will come across a character who I've never heard of, or a story that I'm not that familiar with, and it will actually peak my curiosity enough to make me go figure out who these people were... almost as if his work calls the viewer to action. And if one's work inspires people to that extent, you have been blessed with something special.
2 Peter 1:16 ~ "We did not follow cleverly invented stories when we told you about the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but we were eyewitnesses of his majesty."
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I first came across Melanie's art piece, "Be Still, Know That I AM God" and instantly fell in love with her gorgeous watercolor paintings. There is something unique in the way that she paints, and I haven't really been able to put my finger on it yet... Maybe it is her mix of vintage and pop-culture styles that does it for me...? But whatever it is, I really appreciate it. She also has been a wonderful encourager to me in the past, and I feel that it is rare to find people who like to throw up small books of encouragement all over your page! ^_^
Proverbs 4:23 ~ "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."
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It seems that there are always exceptions to the rule, and E-R-R-O-R seems to break as many as he can get away with. I've always appreciated artists who come to the open canvas after seeing the world in a totally different way... then to be able to put it down in a fashion that actually seem coherent, as incoherent as their subjects may appear. Whenever I look into this oddly strange, beautiful, slightly grotesque, but still identifiable world, I feel like I'm looking through a filter labeled, "child's imagination." For it is just like a child to see what is unseen in the things that are actually visible (what a statement... ^0^)... And I thought I was out of the box...
Hebrews 11:1 ~ "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."
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I sometimes think that the power of paintings is unchallenged by the other mediums. I'm not sure what it is about them that captivates me, but looking through Judylee's gallery has been a pleasure to say the least. Each painting just grows on you, and each painting you see becomes a little bit more refined technically the the last... I'm so captivated by some that I can't even seem to find the words to describe them... And it takes a lot for me to be speechless...
Psalm 46:10 ~ "Be still, and know that I am God."
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Though I'm not a huge fan of poetry, I've been following Sephanie's work for quite some time now. In the time I've known Steph we've engaged in some amazingly tough conversations concerning that strange thing called life, and that has made the pleasure of seeing her poetry flourish so much more rewarding. If I could sum up her art, it might sound like this: "word painting is just a necessity of life." Her poetry is raw, rough, pure in concept, and amazingly executed. It's full of real heart and emotions collected through years of real live experience... and it has really challenged me as an artist.
Psalm 19:3-5 ~ "There is no speech or language where their voice is not heard. Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world. In the heavens he has pitched a tent for the sun, which is like a bridegroom coming forth from his pavilion, like a champion rejoicing to run his course."
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Sometimes the persons artwork is just the crest of a wave in the middle of a very deep ocean... but it is not till you get beyond what they do that you get to see the depth of what is really there. Her piece "Trust and Wait" pulled me in. "Ecclesiastes 3:11" was the only words in the artists comments... I felt the tug on my heart and I went to look up the verse, and what power I discovered was there within the scripture her piece had led me to. To ponder on those words... I could sit here all day and wrestle with it, never coming a step closer to understanding the weight of eternity or the grandeur of a Holy God. Thank you very much Magnonettes for pricking my heart, and turning my once again misguided attention to where it needs to be.
Ecclesiastes 3:11 ~ "He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
Devious Comments
i have to admit i am totally speechless.
this whole journal is just SOOO powerful
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[...a secret was concealed.]
it rose like thunder, clapped under our hands!
it s t r e t c h e d for centuries to a diary entry's end;
where i wrote:
you make me happy when skies are grey.
Psalms 1
(from the Message translation)
"How well God must like you--
you don't hang out at Sin Saloon,
you don't slink along Dead-End Road,
you don't go to Smart-Mouth College,
Instead you thrill to GOD's Word,
you chew on Scripture day and night.
You're a tree replanted in Eden,
bearing fresh fruit every month,
Never dropping a leaf,
always in blossom.
You're not at all like the wicked,
who are mere windblown dust--
Without defense in court,
unfit company for innocent people,
God charts the road you take.
The road THEY take is Skid Row."
(from the NIV translation)
"Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.
But his delight is in the law of the LORD
and on his law he meditates day and night
He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers.
Not so the wicked!
They are like chaff
that the wind blows away.
Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgement,
nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.
For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous,
but the way of the wicked will perish."
And this too. I think the Spirit is leading to this too.
Psalm 4
(gah! I get teary-eyed! I can't even read the words... lol. The Message)
"When I call, give me answers, God, take my side!
Once, in a tight place, you gave me room;
Now I'm in trouble again: grace me! hear me!
You rabble--how long do I put up with your scorn?
How long will you lust after lies?
How long will you live crazed by illusion?
Look at this: look
Who got picked by God!
He listens the split second I call to him.
Complain if you must, but don't lash out.
Keep your mouth shut, and let your heart do the talking.
Build your case before God and wait for his verdict.
Why is everyone hungry for more? "More, more," they say.
"More, more."
I have God's more-than-enough,
More joy in one ordinary day
Than they get in all their shopping sprees.
At day's end I'm ready for sound sleep,
For you, God, have put my life back together."
(NIV)
"Answer me when I call to you,
O my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods? Selah
Know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself;
the Lord will hear when I call to him.
In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
Selah
Offer right sacrifices
and trust in the Lord.
Many are asking, "Who can show us any good?"
Let the light of your face shine upon us, O Lord.
You have filled my heart with greater joy
than when their grain and new wine abound.
I will lie down and sleep in peace.
for you alone, O Lord,
make me dwell in safety."
Have a very blessed day today, my friend!
"The Lord Bless you
and keep you;
the Lord make make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the Lord turn his face toward you
and give you peace."
"God bless you and keep you,
God smile on you and gift you,
God look you full in the face
and make you prosper." -Numbers 6:24-26
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Vic Mignogna (Ed Elric, Fai D. Flowright, Dark Mousey, Ikkaku, etc.) speaks about his faith, and I agree.
God bless you my sister in Christ. Thank you for being sensitive to the Spirit.
“The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them. My eyes are ever on the LORD, for only he will release my feet from the snare.”- Psalm 25:14-15
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Don't be discouraged, have Faith! Jesus is LORD! ~ I'm going to live for the Father every day! ~ God places the heaviest burden on those who can carry its weight. ~ I love my Daddy!
"Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known."
"We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!"
1 Corinthians 13:12
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Vic Mignogna (Ed Elric, Fai D. Flowright, Dark Mousey, Ikkaku, etc.) speaks about his faith, and I agree.
Tonight in 180 (the college) bible study we were going through Psalm 1! And then when I got home, I was reading through Ephesians 5 (for I've been memorizing verse 1-13, so far)... but I was doing some back tracking and got to Ephesians 4:26 which had a little footnote next to it. At the bottom it says Psalm 4:4. I went to the verse and realized that both of these scriptures that you've shared totally lined up with what I've studied today!
WOW!!! Praise the Lord God Almighty!!!
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Don't be discouraged, have Faith! Jesus is LORD! ~ I'm going to live for the Father every day! ~ God places the heaviest burden on those who can carry its weight. ~ I love my Daddy!
thank you! it's very touching, I'm glad that you get more connected with God through my artwork and the verse Ecclesiastes 3:11
GBU
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I prayed for you, and was sorry for your pain for the personal rejection and anger directed at you for sharing your heart. You gave the biggest gift a human has to offer in that journal.
You say tons of good stuff here in response. I will pray for this be received by more people who need to find it.
Sometimes that anger is the way a seed first hits a heart that will later be blessed by it. I will pray that too, for the ones who took time to strike out at you.
You are a great brother. I am so in touch with the reality of our eternal family we have to look forward to as I meet Christians here and sense the connection, so deep, that we have because of Jesus and the love He has already given us a foretaste of.
I was trying to go to bed for a longer stretch of sleep tonight. Woke up after less than four hours and decided to wander through here a bit.
I am encouraged to have found this.
Thank you for everything in it. In the 3 months I've been in dA I have dashed about and absorbed so much, some didn't sink in. I think that is what happened here. So God brought me back tonight.
I love you, you are an awesome brother.
I'll visit you again soon.
I can't believe it, if I didn't thank you before for your kind words, and featuring me here. What an honor. Thank you.
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At times, I cannot wait to be with God in heaven, where his presence is in full, and we don't have anything to hide from him (not that we can do that anyways) or one another. Life here on earth is so ugly so much of the time... but each day I'm reminded of God's genuine grace and mercy.
But I'm not even close to done growing in the Lord. So much of the time, I feel like I've only just begun... but I think if you ask anyone that, they would give such an answer.
But thank you very much for your responses. They continue to encourage me in my battles.
Always, God bless.
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Don't be discouraged, have Faith! Jesus is LORD! ~ I'm going to live for the Father every day! ~ God places the heaviest burden on those who can carry its weight. ~ I love my Daddy!
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